Brain Drain

So, lately I've sort of been randomly posting without any regularlity, after a good start, and realized that I need to make a decision to actually stick with this or let it fall into mismanagement like other blogs I've visited. The latter is definitely not appealing.

One would think that as a mother, I'd have a daily supply of things to blog about, but apparently, these things are more of a brain drain than anything. I suppose I could lower my standards and write about the latest and greatest achievement of son. I suppose as he grows and supplies me with many profound statements, I will likely have more fodder. Alas, such a task for a little one.

Husband and I have been discussing (negotiating, really) having another child. The way I figure it, I have one, my life is pretty much not my own, so what's one more? Heck, what's two more? Ok, let's not jump there just yet. At the same time, we are in such a huge period of transition, now is not the right time to be preggers. Husband, on the other hand, is more nonchalant about it. Aren't they always? I sometimes wonder if men would be less willing to knock us up if they actually experienced pregnancy and childbirth first hand.

There will definitely not be another child while son is still in diapers. Nope, not doing it. I would be washing diapers all day, every day. With son almost two years old, I imagine that by the time we do get around to cooking the next bun in the oven, he'll be close to being toilet learnt. Here's hoping anyways.

Two children...it will be brain drain supersized. At that point, will the Mommy brain will have laid down roots, with only remnants of my former self buried deep beneath them? I struggle to maintain some semblance of an identity, both as a mother, but also as the woman I was before motherhood. How does anyone do it without becoming institutionalized?